I let him go for his happiness.

I let go of my happiness.

March 31, 2008 Life. So Far.

Everything is going extra smooth lately. I'm still lovingly stuck on the experience i had on travelling to Bohol a few days ago. It was like nothing else. I'm back in my home now and I'm living my life back normally (whatever that sentence means). Life has been abundantly great for me. A man hits abruptly into our lives and then a part of my childhood dreams came true. Actually, a little of my childhood dreams came true. And it wasn't perfect just like the one i had in my dream but it was so close that i had consider it as a dream come true for me. Freshman year in college is over. Who would have thought? I thought schooling is just like the political-war in this country it doesn't seem to end. But I'm astonished to realize that it has it's progress and there is three more years left for me. Again and again and again, Life has been great. There are things that happened to me that i never even get to think of and yet they came into my life like a blazing sunshine. There are friends who are so dear to my heart that I can't help but just to love them all the way down. And then i realised the love of a family, the love of a family is amazingly fantastic. It's like the cherry on top of everything else. It's like love working non-stop all through out the years. I feel so blessed with my mum, my brother, and my little sister. I'll never forget how happy i am in just sitting next to them, enjoying the company of each other and enjoying our meal. I'll always remember how we laugh ourselves out whenever we imitate the zombies in the movie 28 days later and scare ourselves with laughters. When you think about it, you'll begun to query, "isin't this kind of life enough? i mean, when you really go down deep into it, what more does anyone need anyway?"
But.Life has not been enough still. You'll never get fulfilled with friends,family, home, and security alone. You also need to be fulfilled in yourself. You also need to be fulfilled spiritually. You also need to know God. Certainly God must be the beginning and end in each of our days. Unfortunately, People get so stucked with the world's standard that they tend to forget the most important thing. And I am one of those people. Maybe every people has their own story of unrequited love and frustrations that they sometimes end up lonely in theirselves. Aloof and indifferent and selfish that they didn't care of anything and anyone at all not even God. (i'm actually talking about me). But that days are way over! Seasons change and People change. Enough of all my past bullshits. Enough of my idle moments and amazingly lazy hours. Enough of every giving-in of temptation.
Everyone has the right to start a newlife everytime. Tonight, before i go to bed i'll take a long bath and take it as a ritual of new beginning. Tomorrow will be April 1. Another month, another day, another life, another summer to indulge with. This life offers so many options and this summer, i chose the better one. This summer is not like the summer i had a year ago when all i can do is alternately texting and watching TV all over again. That was disgusting and obviously stupid. No wonder there is nothing interesting about me other than my unique personality. I started my summer with learning how to play table tennis and attending belly dancing classes. My mum also got us someone teaching us some musical instruments. Sounds like fun and sounds like different on the way it has been one year ago. The summer is just getting started I'm sure there's got to be more.
I'm thinking a lot about the future this past year. I have been a future-driven person. I want to be prepared for everything there is in life. I want to work to achieve the sweetest harvests in life. Perhaps that's the reason why I'd rather stay at home and do something productive than to hang-out and drink beers on the bar.
Anyway so much of it. I'm excited about tomorrow. I can always make everyday a big day eventhough there is no occassion at all. :) I want to learn and do something new tomorrow. Maybe get to a place i've never been or pass a route i never passed, or maybe talk to a person i never speak with, or yet smile to a stranger, what about befriending an enemy?( i suppose i dont have an enemy.) I also wanted to conquer a fear tomorrow. I want to do something more, something exciting, something that impresses the Lord. =)
I'll wake up early tomorrow. Probably eight or nine. I'm excited.